My first actual break since eons...

Huh... a month has just passed by since I started my third year... so far so good alhamdulillah...

I got into discussion again with her that day... about life... about death...

I said that I would like to die young... at most, 70 years old... obviously it's not something that I can actually choose, but if given the choice, I would certainly prefer to die before then... why? because I think I have seen enough... seeing demented geriatricer who have lost all modesty and dignity... of course not all will be imposed such an ending to life, some in fact are blessed with beautiful ending (as far as worldly ambitions are concerned)...

As for me, I would prefer to go early... to die after a few battles with honour (from Allah, not manly ones)... or die in any other way as a mujahid... and then prejudice come into play... dia cam cuak yg diri ni akan jadi seorang pengebom berani mati... aku cuma mampu ketawa kepada kemungkinan tu... ketawa menyatakan betapa tak mungkin itu terjadi...

Then for some reason, dia ingat aku nk convert dia... hahaha... barangkali satu hari nanti... bukan aritu... belum lagi...

Apa pun... this year I have been given an excellent opportunity to pursue this, and many other things in life... grateful I am to the almighty Allah... regardless of the impossibility of some of the tasks that lie ahead... insya Allah

May I stay focus on the more important things in life, i.e. being able to see the stars that lie behind an apparently large cloud...

Happy 17th birthday to my little brother, Fallah... may he gain success in all tests in life, the more apparent worldly one being SPM =)