Sunday, March 12, 2006

Looking for the purpose in life...

Arini bersambung lagi perbualan lepas... and this time the initial question was, what is the purpose to life?
Although i can;t actually see her (chatting), i could sense that her pupils are dilating rather immensely from the flow of the conversation... i.e. parasymphatetic response signifying huge sense of interest... agaknya mencari2 erti kehidupan... tujuan and arahtuju... disemburnya aku dengan soalan bertalu2, mencari suatu makna... makna kehidupan...
mengapakah ada manusia menderita... atau lebih tepat lagi, mengapa Tuhan 'mahu' sebahagian dari kita menderita... i answered quite extensively but in short, life is a test... distinguishing a believer from a non... i must admit, choosing the right terms in such circumstance is such a pain in the s... rumit, sangat rumit...
and then she asked, why? i.e. kenapa Tuhan yg maha penyayang mesti menguji manusia?
dan aku jawab... (aku pn dah tak ingat apa aku jawab)... namun jwpnku semua berbalik pd tujuan kehidupan jua...
dan kuajukan pula, apakah tujuan kehidupanmu?
diam sementara... aku pegi layan tv kejap... citer top gear... kereta bugatti... cun siot...
balik2 dia tgh jawab... to live life... (aku tak paham perbincangan abstract cmnih)... but and to cherish life and the world, to help and support our neighbour; but most of all to love...
sedang aku menyusun kalimah utk bertanya lanjut dia bingkas mengajukan soalan... dia hairan kenapa manusia yg 'the kindest' adalah org2 yg sering dipunish...
aku jwb...
"i also think that kindest people in this world are the ones most often punished (read = tested)..."
sbb keyakinannya pd Tuhan... dan kukhabarkn lagi... krn dlm Quran, Tuhan menguji hambanya berdasarkan iman... aku guna term 'faith in God' sbgai ganti perkataan ima... tatau camner nk apply dlm jwpn kpd kehidupan non-muslim...
dia bertanya lagi... apakah yg Quran ckp psal hubungan dlm kehidupan... i.e. relationships...
aku ckplar pjg kalo nk explain sumer... tp basically rship ada 3 kategori... dgn Allah, sesama manusia dan alam sekitar (thank you bahan usrah form 5)... and muslims are told to love each other as they love themselves (althou tak berlaku dlm realiti dunia semasa)...
pendek kata, buat baik dgn sumer bende atas planet bumi, planet2 sekitar dan seluruh alam...
by now aku dh konpius...
pastu dia kata aku dh jwb soalan dia... makin konfius aku... dia berterima kasih, aku bersama-sama... "welcome, i supposed..."
alhamdulillah atas nikmat iman yg dtg percuma tapi kemudiannya menuntut 'bayaran'...
P/S - maaf atas 'pergaulan' bahasa yg melampau... ada tujuannya.. personally, i'm astonished by the concern that she showed for her fellow beings... a rather phylosophical discussion... i would like to think that i hv done my best... and yes, somewhere in between, i managed to slip in explaination to why the need for hell...

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